So… the consensus is in… five out of five of my wonderful commenters have voted to continue this blog… five of the ten ‘like’ responders… five of the now 41 ‘visionofhope33’ site followers… Oh… wait… that’s not a very good percentage is it? I suppose that means that 31 of the 41 followers either didn’t like the last post or have abandoned me. I suppose… considering the subject matter of this blog… who can blame them. Who really wants to wade in the muck and the darkness of one suffering with cancer and heart disease? Who really wants to listen to the whining of one dealing with the adversity of pain? Who wants to get all wrapped up in the everyday challenges that one must face with life threatening illnesses? But……… but I post such adorable kitty pics along with my ‘cat’erwauling…..
Okay… so here’s what I’m going to do. I’ll just use the American politics method to determine the results… My committee of one… me… has decided to make up some new rules and all commenters votes will be worth 10 votes each… you know… like ‘super-delegates’… so… that translates to 50 yeas, 5 uncommitted and 31 abstentions… So I suppose I have no choice but to continue this blog… Well… after all… isn’t that democracy?
You can see by the photo below that Willow doesn’t think much of my democracy. Very often… animals are smarter than humans…
So here’s the update on my recovery and health situation. I cannot tell you of any changes in the cancer at this stage. The lymph nodes of the neck, under the arms and creeping down the side of the chest are very painful a large part of the time. As far as I know, there isn’t much to improve that situation. My lymph system was severely injured by the cancer in the neck and then again by the radiation treatment. I don’t really expect it to improve a great deal, but our lymph system has a great deal to do with our immune system… so I am hopeful that the pain is not relative to the efficiency of the immune system, but I suppose that it most probably is… The fluid that is supposed to flow freely within that system does not do that within mine. I must manually assist it in the neck area and don’t really know what to do for it in the other areas. I suppose that what is good for one area is most likely good for another.
My heart is a mess… but I have discussed that in recent posts. There has been no improvement and I wonder from day to day what symptoms must be endured. It changes regularly but never seems to give me an entire day, void of serious symptoms. Some days are better than others and I am extremely grateful for those better days. Although I seldom experience a complete day without extreme arrhythmias or atrial fibrillation, light headedness or chest pains that require nitros or at least nitro patches… Those times when it beats regular for just a short while is like a little heaven on earth.
I know that there are some of you who read these posts that are suffering. Some with similar circumstances and some with far different ones…. but suffering just the same. I know that I am not alone… I am not alone in my vision of hope… nor in my search for strength… nor in my desire to discover different ways to relieve the symptoms… perhaps to unearth uncommon cures. My deepest gratitude to all of you who have chosen to make this journey with me. To those of you who have taken the time to share some of those ‘uncommon’ potential remedies, ways to ease the pain and methods to ease the mind… to those who have offered the most beautiful of comments, filled with caring and compassion… I offer you my humbled heart and a very special namasté…