April 2019 update pre-scan

So here we go again.  This is the week of the PET scan.  What will be determined?  Do we start the process all over again?  Has it raised its ugly head for the fifth time?  Am I cured of cancer?  Has my lung regenerated itself?  Is the lower lobe still blocked off by the hilar tumor, keeping the fluid locked inside it?  Is the middle lobe still collapsed?  Do I still have pneumonia?  Is pleural effusion still running rampant between the linings of the lungs and the chest cavity?  Do I ask too many questions? 

Ummm….. NO!

I don’t believe a patient of any serious illness/disease can ask too many questions and if you have a doctor that doesn’t want to answer your questions… all of them… then find a new one.  My oncologist answers “all” my questions… even when she would rather not.  My VA doc tries his best to avoid my questions and attempts to change the subject by telling me I need to take the flu shot or to have a colonoscopy.  Hell will freeze over before I have one of those.  When he tells me that crap… I just say… Doc… I’ve had life threatening cancer in five different parts of my body… do you really think I’m going to voluntarily have a camera shoved up my @$$ just to see if something might be out of sorts up there?  That’s when he hides his eyes in the computer screen and starts asking me why I’m not refilling all my medications.  Then I have to inform him that I haven’t the means to pay the ridiculous amounts that the VA is charging me for them while hearing on the TV… how well the government takes care of its precious veterans.  He then realized… once again… that I can actually see through the bullshit of the Veterans Administration and governmental red tape.  He had the nerve to tell me on my last visit that I needed an MRI done on my spine.  I asked him if I had to travel to get that done and he said “yes”.  I told him I couldn’t travel, I was too ill to travel, and he dropped the subject.  What happened to the VA telling everyone in the world that our wonderful veterans could now “choose” to have treatment locally if they lived more than 40 miles from a treatment center?  What happened?  More lies and misconceptions from our dear and precious government of the United States of America.  Welcome to America.  We care about our veterans…..?

My cardiologist… (not VA associated) doesn’t want any conversation at all.  Doesn’t want to go into any detail of tests he runs that cost you a fortune… and certainly doesn’t want any questions beyond what he has to tell you on his own… which is very uninformative.  It’s like squeezing blood out of a turnip. 

Wow!  That was a real rant, wasn’t it?

Okay… I’m done.  PET scan this week.  Results from the doc next week, but we all know that I will find a way to retrieve the results before that appointment.  My laptop loves reviewing PET scan CD’s and on the last scan, the radiologist that read the scan actually gave me a copy of his analysis.  I think the same person is doing this scan so… I’m expecting to get the report before the doc does.  If he does… I hope to share it with you before I talk with the doc.  Could be very entertaining… hopefully on the positive side of things. 

Summary:  Still coughing myself to death.  Chest, side and back all hurt from either internal trouble or soreness from coughing so damned much.  Periods of weakness… fatigue… shortness of breath… fever now and then… some loss of appetite… otherwise… things are wonderful.

See you on the other side of the PET scan.

Miracle paint

Have a most beautiful spring day


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